ahh the weirdest thing happened yesterday!! okay since EASTER me n kev had plans for him to come over on the 24th n spend the day with me, well thursday he found out he had to work that day.. cool, well turns out he didnt get out til 7!!! so he never came! i waited for him n finally around 4 he told me he was workin til 7! i PROMISED my sister that id go to the library with her once kevin got here, she even helped me clean my room so that id go with her, well i never went with her either. i did go out with sam tho to babysitt kay haha sam says i act like a 4 year old too oh well.. :) i enjoyed myself  kevin called me tho, appologized alot, said how pissed he was and he wanted to see me and that he wanted to make it up and he asked if my mom was mad at him.. so then i had to explain about how my moms never really been to happy about us, not that she dont like him, she does and she loves that he lives far away but she doesnt think we will make it she says that he is only my like first real boyfriend and that there will be plenty others.. and for the longest time she thought that he was cheating on me, during he whole 5 months n 11 days i went without seeing him. he told me that he was going to call my mom and talked to her. omg i did not want him to do that i tried telling him not to but then his bus came and had to go, later i called him and he said he called but no1 answered and left a message.. OH SHIT- u wont believe how weird his message was! lol it was like an hour long!! and at the end he told my mom how we are gonna last cus he really likes me.. AHHHH i cant believe he said that he is soo adorable. sam said i have a good man and that i shouldnt let him go- i think she is right. kevin still keeps appologizing about yesterday. i admit at first i was real pissed and didnt believe him, but now its cool i believe him, i  understand that working is more important than me but he keeps sayin that i am and that he just needs the money for us wen we are living together

             "we could leave this town and run forever"
i would so love to do that with him-- i want it to be me n him for the rest of my life

i still cant believe that i could feel like this.. wat did i ever do to deserve such a great guy, to be soo happy, to be treated so well.. how can i be in love all over again? sometimes i think i rushed it, rushed it alot and that maybe we should cool down and date other people well not really date other people but be able to get with other peope *shit ive never told anyone this before* but then i look at his picture that i sleep next to everynite

another journal.. yes i kno

i love you kevin with all my heart sweety 2-15-03 forever i wont ever leave you i cant lose u